dude, I know you think your not wanted here but you are!
I have depression and I know how your feeling, not in the same way but I can relate.
Everyone has put al that stuff behind except for you. Your the one clinging on to it, not letting it go. Just let it go and accept that everyone here are nice people and want you to stay.
Wherever you end up, if it’s here or somewhere else, You are not the problem unless you decide you are problem! You’ll always be welcome here unless the mods say otherwise and remember; Your @NeoStreak, an awesome person!
hope you’ll stay around
-pecan4