You know @_jupiter? Thats wonderful! welcome to this community! I hope you have a wonderful time here!
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Hello.
ā¦so I havenāt been posting on the forums as much, and IāM NOT LEAVING, donāt worry, I just wanted to talk. Maybe a bit about why I havenāt been as active. I know a lot of people do this, and in the end, itās not that big of a deal, butā¦ maybe the reason might help you guys a bit.
Maybe.
So, basically, for the past 3 months or so, I think, Iāve really started thinking about interactions. Just interactions with people, anyone you know. Friends. Acquaintances. Family. Anyone, really. How do they go about? How do theyā¦ work? I used to think I did, but I donāt think so anymore.
How about we start at one point. How can we have a truly authentic connection with a person? Is it even possible? Iāve learned that itās entirely dependent on the person. I looked at what it all really is, and I started to realise that Iām not really that real to anyone, not very truthful. I align myself to scenarios to get certain reactions. In fact, Iāve done that all my life.
And it makes you feel alone.
I may not be alone when it comes to people. There are people all around me, people who āknowā me. But they donāt actually, they donāt because I hide parts of myself to make them like me, to make them think Iām cool. Because Iām not really. Iām not as cool as I try to convey. And I do it differently to everyone I know. To some I act jovial and talkative, because I know thatās what they want, what they see me as. To others, Iām quiet and to the side, because they want to be listened to.
I am a shapeshifter. I donāt have a true personality, because it seems completely defined by who Iām talking to. And the worst part is that the lie IS my truth now. I donāt have a truth because all the encounters I have ever had in my life have just been LIES. So I donāt have one. I donāt have a personality. Itās strange. Itās hard to explain, butā¦ if personalities were represented as 1D lines, I feel like a 2D plane. I donāt have a single personality.
So no matter what I say, Iām not speaking as ME. All of me. Itās impossible. Iād have to act as a slice of my 2D plane to match the 1D line personalities we convey in conversation. Maybe you guys are planes too. But Iād never know, because we only express ourselves in dialogue using 1D lines. Even now, even here, this isnātā¦ this isnāt me talking. Just the part of me I want you to interact with, that I want to hear. Itās like weāre acting out a play.
But anywayā¦ yeah. I just felt like putting that out there. Sorry if itās intense or something. I hope it gets approved, itās nothing major.
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ITS 7PM (dont take this to seriously)
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This is beatiful, and I get it. Sometimes we all need someone to talk to about our thoughts. Just remember
Youāre a cool dude, 
(Im not super deep and stuff so idk what im doing. I tried my best and I hope that helps)
LETS MAKE SOME CODE!
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YOU are the personality, YOU are the GOAT: TMF proves your abillity, AND EVEN ON A IPAD!!
youāre just a chill guy thats allā¦
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Welcome to Makecode Forums
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Also btw I am a new user I have been on here for 3 weeks but I only just discovered this Topic
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Not SBG is crazy 
Anyways, hes right. Welcome to the forums!
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@ChimbroDaPro, I want you to know that itās completely okay. You are truly a wonderful person.
I can understand what youāre going through. Iāve experienced a similar experience, of losing who I am. Often, I find myself changing who I am to fit what others expect of me, trying to make those around me feel more understood or valued. While I genuinely appreciate having so many friends and love them dearly, I often carry a hole in my heart which I suppress the pain and act like everything is fine. Itās as if Iāve forgotten how to cry, thinking that showing my emotions are ineffective actions. So instead, I cover my hurt with fake emotions of fake happiness, believing it would hurt less.
I understand now that, in trying to protect myself, Iāve ended up losing parts of who I am. Itās a tough realization, knowing that this choice has been both a refuge and a prison for my mind. Itās like a painkiller that dulls the hurt but doesnāt truly heal the wounds.
Remember, your decisions donāt have to depend on what others think you get to decide who you want to be as you deserve love just like everyone else. You are someone very important to this community, and itās so important to love yourself for who you truly are. Being you is a gift as is something that you will never truly lose.
But other than that hope you continue making wonderful games as the games you make are truly amazing and are very creative
(Just to let you know i did use partly AI but the experiences I talked about are all true
)
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You know, some times its just good to be your true self. Donāt just put on a masquerade because you want to be a people pleaser. A good way to understand your true self is to just to talk online, like right here in this forum. People wonāt be able to judge you, we are all just a bunch of profiles.
I too have a few group of friends, but sometimes I think about how we even got here. I just stare at the screen of a bunch of them in a vc. I didnāt even have much in common with them. But sometimes, you just gotta be your true self. If they donāt really like you if you be your true self, its fine. But usually true friends should not be people who will make a big deal of you if you are not aligned with them.
Another thing you should remember is your parents are there for you. Iām not sure if youāre just a teenager or a working adult, but your parents will always care for you, so just talk to them about your genuine feelings ā unless they are trying to kill you or something.
Anyways, good luck with the existential crisis. I know I never really talked to you before but Iāve seen your games like the MakeCode Forums, and it is amazing.
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Well, hmpV isnāt new, however there has been a small outbreak of it so i would stay cautious
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Ngl, everyone has multiple personalities, its your choice to show which one to other people. Also, none of us are as cool as we look, after all everyone is hiding something COUGH COUGH @Agentboom get a rocket and get off me For example: Iām actually not that funny- hold on this isnāt new- But what im saying is that just remember that the people youāre talking to, most likely do the exact same thing, and itās ok if you want to hide some things from people, you never need to share everything (except for police interrogations, i know youāre smart, you know this.) and i donāt want to put it depressingly but in the sense youāre putting it in, you donāt know anyone either, uh in a way actually, in online form, we can mostly only speak in 1D lines, so really, you canāt know anyone online in the first place, you can only really fully know someone if they are your best friend in real life, or if some 87 year old grandmother named eridith has a fully decked out facebook profile.
But, look my point here is that we will NEVER know who eachother are, everyone has personal things they donāt tell you. But even then, we can try to communicate with eachother as best as we can.
I hope this was useful because its five a.m while writing this and i actually cannot type well to save my life
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I view personality as a multi faceted object, itās complex and ever changing and you never really see every detail of it. You might view it as a fragmented collection of identities but for me they represent parts of a whole connected identity.
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Oh 
,
I donāt know you as a user but I have played your game Welcome To Makecode Forums and really enjoyed it so it is sad that you wont be able to make those games anymore.
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TMF 4: The Multi-faced Personality
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Broās just a lowkey chill guyā¦
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It is tsb lil br-
DANGIT HE FOUND ME! I GOTTA GO! YOUāLL NEVER CATCH ME INTERGALACTIC FBI! YOUR MOST WANTED WILL ALWAYS BE ONE STEP AHEAD!!! HAHAHA!!! NOW TO GET ON MY ROCKEāoh wait i dont have oneā¦ umā¦ @_jupiter I swear Iāll pay the rent just give me some time
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I ment it as it IS tsb, lil broā not as, āits tsb lil broā in case your wondering
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